That is- a single parent. David is back to work!!! Today was his first full day back and he was gone from 6am-6:30pm. He will be putting in long days for the rest of the summer, so I'm a single parent again. Today was really good though. I got Jake to school on time, although he asked to be dropped off at the school door instead of me walking him in. I shed a tear watching him walk in the school by himself.
Tyler and I came home and all of a sudden I decided to clean the basement. It turned into a dumping ground the last few months. I would just take stuff down there and set in on the floor instead of putting it away. It took awhile for us to clean all the ladybugs that were down there too. The floor was covered in them. I also made a big pile of garage sale stuff. It feels so good to get that stuff out! By the time we finished it was already time for Jake to get off the bus. The boys played outside until dinner, and then we had burgers on the grill, french fries, applesauce, and root beer floats for desert. So yummy.
Now David is home and has the boys in the bath while I get to relax. My back hurts so bad! I need to get that Gopher Grabber thing you see on t.v. I can't spend all summer bending over picking toys and stuff up. After the boys are in bed, we get to watch The Blind Side. Not to bad for my first day, give it a few weeks and I'll have a different opinion.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
It's About Time
I will admit, I have been un-motivated this past week, maybe even week and a half. I love taking vacations, but I hate all the work involved before and after. Last week I spent all week catching up on laundry, bills, grocery shopping, ect. And then last weekend it was time for game night at our house so I had to clean, clean, clean and make food. This week I've had appointments, 2 days of subbing and 2 days of car shopping, which I absolutely dislike. We've only bought one car since we have been married, but when it comes to car buying, I always feel like I'm getting screwed and I dwell on it. I hate that cars are not priced at a real price. Put a price tag on it like Target does and call it good. And it is so time consuming. Blah.
Anyway, on top of all this, David is still not back to work. He has never been laid off for this long. It's been nice having him around, but it is starting to make me lazy! I don't have a routine down. I haven't had to take Jake to school in 5 months, which means I don't get ready until 9:30 or 10. I need to get some order back in my life. And I need to get some blogging back in my life. There are so many things I want to remember and capture, but I am so behind! And I know what is going to happen, one day I'm going to look back and think to myself "why did I not spend more time blogging this?" I enjoy looking back so much and knowing that that moment is forever remembered and documented.
It's also sinking in that I only have 12 weeks left of just Jake and Tyler time. I get so emotional thinking there is another sibling about to arrive. I got the same way when Tyler was about to arrive. I was sad that it was no longer just me and my Jake. And I start to feel bad, thinking I'm just taking more time away from them. It's hard enough to find balance and then you throw in another thing that consumes your time. It's hard not to feel guilty. And I know once this baby is born, we will adjust and we will wonder what our life was like without him, but the weeks leading up to that point are hard. They are are both at the age when they are really playing together and enjoy each other's company. Which is another factor in my not motivated situation. I don't have to do much for them anymore. They entertain each other. I can sit back and not have to be a source of amusement. I love watching them play and talk to each other. It's a great source of comfort to know that for some reason, should anything happen to David and I, they will always have each other. I'm going to be honest, Jake was a huge "surprise" to us, and I wasn't ready for another when I had Tyler, but I wanted a sibling for Jake and I wanted them to be close in age. With this one, I have pure baby fever. I haven't had a baby in almost four years! I'm looking foward to having a tiny baby around.
So there you go, this was supposed to be my Florida/Easter post and I went off on this rambling about random stuff post. It feels so good to get it out though. Ahhh. Tomorrow I will try to recapture our Flordia trip, if I'm feeling motivated.
Anyway, on top of all this, David is still not back to work. He has never been laid off for this long. It's been nice having him around, but it is starting to make me lazy! I don't have a routine down. I haven't had to take Jake to school in 5 months, which means I don't get ready until 9:30 or 10. I need to get some order back in my life. And I need to get some blogging back in my life. There are so many things I want to remember and capture, but I am so behind! And I know what is going to happen, one day I'm going to look back and think to myself "why did I not spend more time blogging this?" I enjoy looking back so much and knowing that that moment is forever remembered and documented.
It's also sinking in that I only have 12 weeks left of just Jake and Tyler time. I get so emotional thinking there is another sibling about to arrive. I got the same way when Tyler was about to arrive. I was sad that it was no longer just me and my Jake. And I start to feel bad, thinking I'm just taking more time away from them. It's hard enough to find balance and then you throw in another thing that consumes your time. It's hard not to feel guilty. And I know once this baby is born, we will adjust and we will wonder what our life was like without him, but the weeks leading up to that point are hard. They are are both at the age when they are really playing together and enjoy each other's company. Which is another factor in my not motivated situation. I don't have to do much for them anymore. They entertain each other. I can sit back and not have to be a source of amusement. I love watching them play and talk to each other. It's a great source of comfort to know that for some reason, should anything happen to David and I, they will always have each other. I'm going to be honest, Jake was a huge "surprise" to us, and I wasn't ready for another when I had Tyler, but I wanted a sibling for Jake and I wanted them to be close in age. With this one, I have pure baby fever. I haven't had a baby in almost four years! I'm looking foward to having a tiny baby around.
So there you go, this was supposed to be my Florida/Easter post and I went off on this rambling about random stuff post. It feels so good to get it out though. Ahhh. Tomorrow I will try to recapture our Flordia trip, if I'm feeling motivated.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I'm Sorry
I would like to blog about Easter and our trip to Florida, but when we were in Florida, we had cable and David got me hooked on the show 16 and Pregnant. So, until I finish watching seasons 1 & 2, I will not be doing any updates. Thank you for your cooperation.
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